sorry my dear... things have been changing too drastically within this few months... more and more loads have been piling on me... responsibily have been getting bigger... you might not understand as you are always being care by your parents and family... is sometimes sad and at the same time envious of u and your family... why can't I have a happy family too... why can't my children able to see their grandparents... living together going on holidays and every weekend coming together to have dinner...

money to me is very much important... having a good life to support myself, my family and my dad becomes a huge importance to me... protecting my love ones and not letting them get hurt is something that I realise I should not have neglected... It use to be like the house is taken care by my mum and dad... as children we just ave to study and work hard so as to feed them when they get old... but now is a different story... alot of things need to be taken care of...

sorry to scold you, and u might just disagree with me... I shall say you are right to say that coming to my place is wrong... at times I might just be too demanding... controlling most asect of your life... maybe is that I am over concern of you getting hurt or treated badly... you re just my girlfriend we are together merely a year plus... what makes me think that you are mine forever... no one knows what willl happen the next sec... just like my mum case...

Sorry for controlling you too much, I will try to be "selffish" at times... maybe this will lighten my load of overcaring for you... maybe being insensitive at times can solve this problem... maybe...

I hate to blog... everytime I blog... it will be a bad expereince i have gone thru or things I wanted to say but I can't...

Liike what I have said... I am no more the Danny you know... Sometimes, I am lacking of confidence... sometimes I just have to face the reality... sometimes I have to move fast... faster then anyone... so as not to lose out... I hate losing out... I want to win and win big... like before... but most of the times I am banging walls... at times, losing faith of myself... sometimes just too tired to move on...

Though I have change very much as a person and in the way I am thinking, I still loves you... just want to let you know that I really do hope things work well for us...

DaN^nY loves you at 2:11:00 PM.