Dear... guess the reason for our tension mght be because of stress and that I started to demand more from you... maybe... being too protective of you and would like to control you... sorry... I guess I should let you be what you are... not transforming you to a person that I want you to be... it is a very selfish act... unless you feel the same way I do... This semester though we have quarrel alot but I personally feel we have tackle it well... seriously... I still loves you and even more then before...

Anyway, I'm glad to see what you have written... at least you know your problems and would want to change... however, from I see, it is always a sudden impulse, after that it disappear (many times from different situation)... I hate to say that I have sometime lost the trust and confidence in you when u say u want to do something... but I know that if I do that, I will not be good enough to be your boyfriend, the person that you can come for shelther when there's rain... That's why I keep telling myself that no matter what, I must have confidence in you and trust you for what you do... However, this really ties down to how much you show me you can do it... ok?

To help you, I really do have an advice... very simple but not easy to do... just be RESPONSIBLE for what you are doing and what you say... do or say it if you know you can do it... dont' leave things to the last minute when problem arise then you tackle it... plan ahead... make sure things does not go wrong, even if it goes wrong, you are prepared to tackle the problems that arise...

Sometimes I control myself from helping you becuase I'm afraid that you might be too dependent on me and naturally would expect me to help you do this do that... I really hope that one day even the minute details you will be able to spot it without me telling you... best you are the one who remind me if I miss out on things...

In the end, my dear is my dear... change is for your own good... you knew it as well... but in the end if you are still what you are... I will accept it... becuase I love you beacuse you are my dear not because you are good in planning or pointing out details...

I don't know what I have written here will encourage or demoralize you... but from the bottom of my heart, I really wanted to be by your side... helping you change... reminding you... in the end, is really up to you to do it... even if you fail... I still can accept the result... becuase I still love you as you are...

I will not put you down (I promise)...
I will give trust and confidence...
I will always be there for you, make sure you don't run away...
I will try to control my anger... not only to you but people around me... (Been trying very hard so you must try hard as well... even when I'm not around)
I will not forget... that I love you as much as you do... :)

DaN^nY loves you at 1:54:00 PM.